Have you ever had the feeling of uncertainty? Like you
wanted to do something but you just cant decide whether to just go for it or
let it pass.
Well, that’s what Im having since 11th February
until two hours ago. To start with I am a AIESEC ( what is AIESEC? click here for more info https://www.aiesec.org/ ) member, and I am very enthusiastic
about it since the day I first joined AIESEC in UM. During the semester break
,I had the chance to participate in one of the annual conference which was Malaysia
Leadership Development Seminar or better known MyLDS. It was joined by AIESEC members
from other Local Community ( LC ) which consist of both national and
international. Total delegates ? 600 delegates. During the six days event, I
have learned a lot in terms of having better understanding on the structure of
AIESEC and the main ideas of what AIESEC is all about.
Sorry to bore you on the details about AIESEC, lets get back
to the main topic okay?
Okay so what happened on 11th February was that
the announcement of Executive Board ( EB ) of AIESEC LCUM.I was ecstatic ,being all
excited about applying and eager to fill in my application form. Few days after
downloading the application package, the results for semester one is announced.
After a few technical problems and difficulties, I finally got my results and
sadly it wasn’t what I have expected.
So I did some analysis of what I have been doing in the past
semester, ’’ have I been playing around a lot? Did I got too involved in other
activities to the point that I neglected
my studies? “ . The question just go around my head for a few days and during
that time I was thinking of dropping everything I am involved in and just focus
on my studies. But me being me, I cannot be ‘ not busy,too free ‘ or else I ‘d
die. Naah just kidding but you get my point?
So yeah after a few discussions with few people I choose to
stay.
So back to my dilemma, I suddenly got cold feet of applying
for the post. It was so sudden like suddenly I am questioning myself whether
can I handle it , will I break halfway
and other lots of the ‘what if’s ‘ questions. But despite the uncertainty
, I went to the EB’s experience sharing session which was tonight. After going
through four sharing session with the EB’s and the LCP, Allen himself I still
cannot make up my mind just yet.
But it was at the mamak later that night, after the sharing
session where I came out with a thought. I was with most of the LC team, having
our supper at a mamak. While everyone else was talking to each other, shouting
to one another across the table and some was in deep conversation either
continuing their sharing or just personal sharing and I had a moment to myself
for some time.
I thought ‘ these are the people who had the same uncertainty
feeling when they first joined AIESEC/applied for the TLP but they went for it.
‘
It sort of reminds me
of a talk by Jiong Kit, one of the Chair for MyLDS where he said,
‘ instead of asking why, ask yourself why not ‘
And then there’s the advice from Joon, an alumnus of AIESEC UM
who told me,
‘ you will never be ready for anything, because if you do
there’s no point of applying. You just have to go for it and challenge yourself
‘
So I guess, in life we cannot just sit and wait for opportunities
to come. Sometimes we have to get up and chased it and then only will we know
what the experience feels like. My sharing may be in the scope of my own AIESEC
experience but it also applies to everything else in life.
Why wait? Why hesitate? Grab every opportunities you can get
and the results afterwards can be pretty amazing. Surprise yourself of your own
abilities cause you will never know what your strength and weakness really
until you give yourself a challenge.
‘’ never regret,
If its good, its wonderful,
If its bad, its experience . ‘’
-Victoria Holt-
And guess
what was the first thing I did when I reached my room tonight, I open the
application form and put a tick on two boxes ; position applied and field of
interest. That’s my first step.
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